am I the powers that be?

oh, and AN algae eater
posted by steph at 11:55 AM

well a bit has happened since the last time I posted...allow me to bring you up to speed. I did not get the job that pays 7.50/hr, however the same guy offered me an internship for units which I am going to take. Its about 10 hours a week for 5 extra units which is not too shabby. It will get me some units and some work experience so that I can add something to my resume that deals with labwork. I bought a new fish tank with the money I earned over winter break, I wanted to get a new TV, but the powers that be showed me that I wanted a fish tank more than a new TV so thats what I went with. Its a 29 gallon tank, the biggest that I will have in my apartment. It came with a stand and a deluxe hood for 200 bucks, but the stand has a lil scratch so I got 10% off of it which saved me 20 bucks, and with that money I bought a filter for it. It is a really nice stand and I am extremely happy with my purchase. Tamo's dad is going to build be a stand for my 20 gallon tank, hopefully the materials are not too exspensive. Tamo's dad is like mine in that he likes to build things with his uber tools. I am planning on putting the 20 gallon out in the living room, tamo agreed to split the cost of putting fish in it. we plan on getting a black ghost knife fish to put in it as well as a algae eater, like the one that I have already, as well as a couple other fish. I know what you are thinking...where is he going to get a black ghost knife fish, well mr. smarty pants they have them for sale at this place which got me started with the whole tank thing in the first place. Steph, tamo, and I went there last sunday. they have a very good selection of fish. they had clown loaches that were 40 years old and were about the size of a small football. I hope my guys live that long. Ok, so yesterday I was sitting in my chair and I back up and a wheel of my chair just snaps off...it like completely sheered off. so now I can only sit on half of my chair until I either find out if a place sells just wheels for chairs or until I treat myself to a new chair complements of my partents :) I have been choosing my classes for next quarter, and the outlook looks the same. I am going to take another bio class, my last physics, then take care of my last english requirement as well as my last arts and humanities requirement. Then that leaves me with only my social sciences GE to take care off then I am done with that ish. I have midterms next week so I gotta get crackin on reading and what not. I dont feel too worried since I have actually been reading, but now is not the time to get complacent, so I gotta keep chugging along. oh yeah, my mom called me yesterday about some thing that was billed incorrectly to my account. something about a duplicate ID and a rush transcript order. I had to go over to Mrak (which had a bomb threat yesterday) and take care of business. I got the 15 bucks for the duplicate ID taken care of, but the transcript thingy will have to wait until tomorrow when the guy comes in, he was sick or something. ok, I gotta go eat and start reading and what not, leights.
posted by Congofeet at 6:47 PM

mad about me? *lil kitty eyes*
posted by steph at 2:12 AM

Will that annoying beeping never end?!?! its driving me mad <0_o>
posted by Congofeet at 12:30 AM

well, I sent in a resume for another job just in case I dont get the job that I have been interviewed for. Its a marine bio job actually, but all I do is count little organims and sort them out of mud. On the plus side though it pays 7.50/hr and gives me about 15 hrs a week, not too shabby. Oh, out of curiosity I did a search for John Pinette and I found his website. He has lost quite a bit of weight, but anyway I found out that he is going to be in the Punisher movie, as the neighbor or whatever, and that he has a cd/dvd coming out in spring that I am probably going to have to pick up. On a separate note I have found that I have been reading more, and have been having the urge to read more. Usually it would not bother me when I am not reading, but now it seems to nag at me more. I even cleaned up my bookshelf so that now all it holds is my books and folders and looks really organized, as opposed to before when it was just holding a bunch of my junk and misc. items. I hope to keep it clean, I like it that way. Oh, the battery in my battery back up needs replacing...it makes this stupid annoying beeping sound that tells me that it needs to be replaced. I went to the APC website and found out that it is going to cost about 40 bucks to replace it, which includes shipping and handling. I forgot to call my mom and dad to tell them that I was going to buy it and subsequently charge it to them ;)...I guess it will have to wait until tomorrow. oh well, its sleepy time for me, and I have to get up early tomorrow...7 in the morn :( I am thinking about donating some blood tomorrow also, I get a free pint of 31 flavors ice cream...not too shabby if I say so myself...ok me go no, g'night.
posted by Congofeet at 11:40 PM

well before you read this post you should read the one below it first, so you will be able to understand what is actually going on in this post.

my love helped me find what was missing...its was not actually any one thing in particular, it was several things. The thing that had been bugging me had been doing so for a while. however something happened on monday that really bugged me and it kind of topped things off...and not in a good way. Its not a big secret but I got a D in one of my classes that I did not expect a D in. So I investigated only to find out that I did horrifically on the final. But I emailed the professor of the class just to see if the curve would save me. My actual words in the email consisted of just asking her, the professor, what the parameters of the curve was. What I got back was not the parameters of the curve however, it was the thing that got me to where I was. It said that I had one of the worst scores on the final. now I did not need to know this at all, I did not ask for this, and was 100% pissed off that she had the nerve to say that...but anyway it completly depressed me because all of my life I have always strived to not be the worst at any thing, however after talking with steph I came to realize that this is not the best way to look at things. I should not work on not being the worst, but instead work on being the best. Steph and I talked for over an hour about this stuff and what not, and I dont really want to put all of what was said in here. However here is a small summary:

-I need to strive to be the best and not just not the worst.
-I need to focus my time more on reading, and applying my knowledge instead of straight memorization like I have been doing.

There are a few more things that we talked about, I had a sort of cathartic moment I guess you can call it. Another thing that I came to realize the other day was that I am scheduled to graduate next year in June. I then began to analyze where I am presently and if it was and is where I want to be. And the only thing that I could see was that I was not at all where I wanted to be. My GPA is way too low and I need more units. I have this problem that I dont like at all because I really want to graduate in the four years. My parents have said that they are only going to pay for four years and I dont want to let them down. its one of the biggest deadlines that I have ever had and I am in great fear that I am not going to make it and I feel that not only have I let myself down, I have also let my parents down. I know that they are proud of where I am, but I dont know if my shinning moment when I graduate will come when they had hoped. I know I am not going to take 5 years, but I dont know if 4 is going to be enough, and I guess I am going to have to absorb that with my wallet...I'll be paying for it in more than one way. I honestly feel like shit because I am not going to make it unless I take some drastic measures that might put my GPA in danger, and I dont want to do that. Man I am sleepy, I have not been sleeping very well over the past few nights that these things have been going through my head.

what I have not told steph yet, mainly because I know this for myself already, is that I feel like I need a change in some aspect of my life. It has nothing to do with taking something away, I need something added. This gap would be best filled with a job. I really want a job to change my daily routine of wake up, go to class, go home, study, shower, sleep.

this weekend is going to be a recovery weekend definitely. I need to change somethings right now if I want to solve the problems that have been plaguing me over these past few days, and I will change them, and these things will not bother me ever again...
posted by Congofeet at 8:56 PM

something is wrong with me...I dont know what it is exactly, but I feel that something is not quite right. Nothing is wrong with me physically, it's something mental. its embedded deep within my thoughts and I dont know what it is exactly and I dont know where in my mind it is exactly. I am typing this blog in hopes of finding what I am looking for without acutally knowing what I am looking for. I am walking through a desert of my thoughts and trying to find the oasis that is what I am looking for. the needle in the hay stack if you will. I have noticed that I have been analyzing everything in my life...every single thing. if you can think of something that is in my life I have been analyzing it. I have been sitting in class listening to the professor then all of a sudden I am not listening I am thinking about something that he had done, or something that he had said, but I dont know this until I actually return to listening to him. Then I am walking the mile to my next class which needs to be done in ten minutes, and I find myself analyzing where I am walking to, why I am walking to, how I am walking to and so on. I look down and think about what I am walking on, the sound that what I am walking on is making, if it sinks when I step, if it crunches...I eat and I dont taste the food, I listen to it...I feel it, I think about the way it goes down and the adventure into my stomach. I am losing my freaken marbles here. I dont know what is happening to me. am I depressed for some reason? maybe. am I stressed out for some reason? maybe. I feel like I have lost something...something that I had held with me all of my life. I dont know what it is that I am missing, its something inside. I am not too sure where it went, or if it is going to come back, but its gone now...its not here. somebody help me find it...
posted by Congofeet at 3:41 PM

I managed to survive the first wave of classes. My virology class was my first one at 8 in the morn. It seems to be good, the only problem is that my class right after it is about a mile away...literally, and I have to make the walk in like 10 minutes. We watched a thing in the virology class on Mad Cow, or CJD in humans. it was pretty scary and sobering. There is no way to acutally kill the disease...it has been burned to ash, hit with all known chemicals, boiled, froze, bombarded with radiation and the stupid thing still goes on living...its basically immortal. and the stupid thing is becoming more virulent, which means it kills faster. CJD used to kill in about 30 years, now it is 10-15. Luckily the only real way to get it is by eating the brains and spinal cord of infected animals...and to a lesser extent the other organs of the cow...luckily the muscle tissue does not harbor the disease...anyway on a lighter note my next class is my marine bio class...I can count the number of people in that class including me on one hand...no really, there is only 5 people in the class...well not counting the prof. I am worried about that class because now I have to do really well, there is zero chance for flaking off because not only is it my major, but there is only 5 students...my last class was biology 104, its cell biology, it does not seem to bad, anything after bio 102 should hopefully be a cake walk. all the midterms in virology and biology are multiple choice so thats even better for me, because I am an expert in guessing...tomorrow I have to wake up at 7 in the morn again for my 8 in the morn class...physics 7b..ew and to make it worse its discussion/lab. luckily its the first one, and its before the first lecture so it should be really short. oh, and I bought books on barnes and noble today...the damage...$170 bucks, for two...I bought my $111 used for like 78, but I could not get my virology one used so...yeah...oh for my marine bio class I need to pay in cash to the prof, so I need 25 bucks transferred to my checking account *wink**wink*....thanks mommy and daddy....ok time to relax before another day of school...and before I dont get the chance to rest when school really gets going...leights
posted by Congofeet at 9:53 PM

well I have not posted a blog in a very long time...like very very long time. Mostly because I did not want to go online at home with the 56k. Once you have dsl you never go back. and when you have dsl you wonder how you ever dealt with 56k. Why do they call it 56k anyway. no matter what provider I have ever seen the fastest connection was about 53k and that is a lot faster than most people have seen. Oh well, back on to what I wanted to say. winter break was good. and christmas was good too...better than most years. I got a lot of good stuff, especially new sunglasses. thank god my parents bought them for me. I was going to go crazy without them. I got some other really good stuff, but I am too lazy to mention them. I finally bought the heater for my fish. they really needed it. my fish are all okay, I am really glad too. I was so relieved to see them swimming around happily when I got back. It would have been a really bad day if they were dead. I would have been so pissed off. But in fact it was the total opposite of bad. the were in fact doing quite well. Charlie my sucker fish grew about another half inch, one of my skirts grew a lot, he is probably abotu 2 inches long now and one of my red eyes is about 2 inches long now. When I got home there was about an inch and a half of water missing out of the tank and all these mineral deposits on the hood, the minerals are still there, I am going to take care of them later tonight. its soooo disgusting. I am glad I picked up the heater, the water is sooo cold, it was at about 20 degrees celsius when I got back, which is about 5 degrees celsius below where they like, but now my heater in the tank is running and they are fine. I am probably going to get some more fish later this week, I am not too sure though, I dont want to over crowd my tank. if I do get some fish they are definitely going to be small. steph and I went to the mall today, we had to return the wings I bought for her unicorn because they broke. the person at build a bear was really nice. I find that the people at build a bear are in general very nice, like when I had to request a new head band thingy for one of stephs bears because it was missing. they sent it, no questions asked. I also went to best buy to pick up terminator 3 because it was on sale for 12.99, my I am sure my dad has also bought it by now. I also bought the second one.

I guess I will tell you about my trip home and the wonder of wonders that it was. my family and I got going to the airport at about 10:30, but like the goober that I am I forgot my itinerary, so we had to turn about about 5 minutes into the trip to go back home and get it. when we finally got the the airport there were "vehicle inspections" underway. but when we got up to the people that were doing them they were just waving everyone through. it was the crappiest inspection that I have ever been though in my life...there is more of an inspection coming from the canadian border back to the US. so my mom and dad drop me off and I have to stand in line for about 45 minutes to get my boarding pass. after I watch the idiots at the airport talk for like 5 minutes before they fumble though my bags and what not I go to be further humiliated at the metal detectors. however there was a damn line to get there too. it was about a ten minute wait. so I get there and I take off my shoes and jacket, and take all metallic objects off of my person. then I am waiting for my bag when I hear "uh oh (supervisors name) we have a four cell". And I was like dammit nooooo....so then they take my flashlight out of my bag and tell me I cant take this on board because it can be used as a blunt object. I argued with her for a while about how if it was a 3 cell it was okay, but if you had an inch and a half its not, and how my fist is also a blunt object and are you going to chop my arms off, but it was useless, it was like talking to a wall. I guess its good that they dont make exceptions though. I felt sorry for the lady behind me, I was arguing over a 10 dollar flashlight, the people behind me had a 100 dollar lighter that they could not take on because it was one of those special lighters that does not have an actual flame...it was also 24k gold. I dont know how that worked out, I was already gone. the thing that bothered me the most is that they made me go all the way back to check in my bag. and I had to wait in line again. luckily it was shorter by then. so I take my bag over to be x rayed or whatever they do. then I hear "krause is ok to leave" so I take about a step and a half then I hear "negative, krause is not ok" so I had to go over there and watch them go though my electronics bag since I had to check it. they said that I had "too many wires" or some bullshit like that. by this time I was pissed because my flight was in like 15 minutes. so the guy starts unloading the bag that took about 15 minutes to pack every thing in right. after saying my bag had no bomb shit or whatever inside he attempted to pack everything back in. but now it does not fit because the guy is a dumbass and paid no attention to the way that he took things out. so he is cramming the things in, pulling the zipper back, I can see that he is pulling hard on the zipper too, but I cant touch my bag to help because I am not supposed even though it is a foot from me...the guy even yelled at me when I tried to help. so I finally get that over with, back up stairs though the metal detectors and I have to run to my terminal with my shoes half on. and the best thing is my terminal is the furthest one too...it was horrific. when I get to the terminal finally group A is already loading and there is just a large mass of people for groups B and C, so I just stand on the B side...then this old man pulls on my sleeve after I had been standing there for about 3 minutes and tells me that i have to go to the back of the line. after telling him not to touch me and that a excuse me sir would have been fine I grudgingly move to the back of the "line". the flight was good though, not too bumpy and when the airporter finally got moving it was good too. the guy was really helpful, I was going to tip him three bucks, but I did not have any ones so I just gave him a five. I was too glad to be home to care at all...and I was finally home...okay I gotta go its fishy time.
posted by Congofeet at 7:12 PM